UPDATE OF MY LIFE IN THE PAST FEW MONTHS

man...being lazy here...hvnt updated for a while...n also coz so much hw and shit>.<~~

hm...where should i start? ok...quite boring pts

* 21/02 - babe's bday

* 26/03 - my bday (19...haha...enjoy my last yr of being in the 'teen's)

* 02/04 - me and babe's 1 yr anni

hrm....sighhhh these days dun hv much i can do.....coz folios after folios with other tasks and work to do...non stop thinkin and drawin..even makin models etc but i guess i enjoy it ~

atm....besides stressing (sometimes) abt my work load, also worried abt the fact i cannot find a job!! applyin at places with the sign 'part time/ full time avaliable' - that they needa hire pplz i reckon is bullshit....i dun c them hiring me!!! *cries* i guess i am just not good enuf for them~ white pplz dun think i am capable?! (i reckon) and wat...fkn azn places in china town thinks i am ABC or not Honki coz i dun look honki.... guess no luck with that either~

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sigh sigh sigh,,, life is kinda at the shitty stage rite now for me...seriously...every1 do stupid mistakes....such as makin the wrong choice, doin the wrong thing, lying, etc....

sumtimes....u do it because u ova think abt the consequences of another's reaction, or what u'll get into etc...its not a deliberate action --> err...like the main pt is u aint intending to hurt some1 elses feeling by for example...lying

i hope that person knows wat i am tryin to say...it aint nething big, but ** (not mentioning names here) reckons its big......i understand where ** is comin from yet ** thinks i am doin it coz i think i am never wrong....i dun wanna hurt no body's feelings, i thought not explain sth would instead not make ** feel upset. ** push me to a pt that i would stuff up...askin Q over Q...its just too much...for sth so small yet stupid....sighhh....** not gonna trust me eva again.....

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too depressed to keep on typin....