Now, i am back in melb...2 wks went real fast. at the start...i thought man...this trip is gonna be ages, but then in the end...i just couldnt believe it...that i am in my own house in reality! lolz...i know i will miss every1 in hk.. pplz that live there, pplz from sydney...pplz from other countries....but then i believe we will meet again some day^^

i just woke up...had the biggest nite of sleep ever since i went overseas!! slept for 11hrs man!! so happy...now i am full of energy, but then theres realli nothing to do in melb~_~ it doesn't realli matter...i will get used to this quiet country..the peace and the fresh air hk will never be able to have wakakkakaa

I AM IN HK!!!

omg..i still can't believe i am in hk already...sigh...miss my baby sooo much that i cried like 4 times the day i left and the day b4 i left...how stupid...pplz prob think "man...u're only goin for 2 wks" yeh i know, but i guess thats how much i am realli in love>3<

neways....4got to update my xanga...firstly....since i passed my Ps last thu, i hv been driving around my babe and driving to work etc (everywhere) b4 i left for hk.... neways, back to last fri at amber for VI's bday!!! well well wellz....coz me and my babe were waiting for david to pick us up, we hada er...drink up kinda thing with ourselves at his place - vodka and bacardi mixed with orange juice. we played 15-20 the drinking game...my babe kept losing (lmao) so he drank alot...until this stage he didn't want to be drinkin alone, so i hada take all his shots...and yeh, wen we gotta amber..we were already in the 'tipsy' stage LOLZ.

I got to amber and saw my sis VIII and of coz said happy b'day to her...sigh, the first thing she said to me was: r u drunk?! lolz..how embarrassing...wellz i wasn't! coz i wanted to drink with her. i hada shot of  Tequilla with her and i wanted her to drink till she would be as tipsy as me, but then i didn't wanna drink too much coz i thought i had enuf for the nite....so i waited for pplz to get her drunk wakakkaka!! we left early so i didn't getta see VI sooo drunk that she was chucking...ahhaha everywhere apparently:P well vi vi vi, i am glad u had fun^0^

ok..back to hk...that nite, i couldn't sleep coz i was thinkin abt everything..days without my babe etc...i slept at like 2ish but hada wake up at 5ish for the 8:50am flight.  I hate been in the plane for like 8-9hrs coz its soooo uncomfy!! BUT  i fell asleep coz i was sooo tired. Newayz  i am living in Ma Orn Sarn...wen i got there, i was a lil upset at the start coz transport sooo inconvinent!...hv to catch bus or train etc...not like last time...lived 2 min away from a MTR station.  Now i am kinda used to it, even tho sumtimes i still feel a lil insecure. So far, the last 2 days hv been shopping non stop...money gone away sooo fast>.<!! today i hada hair cut n dyed my hair back to a real dark colour!! now i look like a doll~_~

its sooo cold over here that thank god i did bring a big jacket back..but man...i hate winter...my skin is sooo wrecked rite now..dry n shit like that>.<!!! newaysz....i miss every1 in melb espeshly my BABY!!!!!

Happy Meeeee!!

man....i guess this wk didn't seem as tho would be the worst wk of my life even tho there was a chance it could be (if that makes sense).  well...first of all...MON: my enter came out...not gonna say wat a got, but it was within my prediction...between 80 - 90, and so i wasn't upset abt nething yet wasn't happy to the max. i was just satisfied coz i believe i deserve that score.  This wk i gotta spend alot more time with my babe coz he quit his job since that job was a lil gay in...er....income....commission shit...neways, i will miss him heaps wen i go bak to hk next tue for 2 wks>.<!!!  THU (today) i can't believe i passed my test n got my Ps!!! man...finally can drive out alone legally even tho in the past...i did it er...quite a few times without ne1 knowing..but only my babe:P *shhhh*

most of all..i wanna say: HAPPY B'DAY TO MY SIS (bro in law's future wife) VIIIII!!!!!! she's getting older and older each day now in her 20s! wakkaka..makes me feel a whole lot younger :P jkjk... goin amber tmr to celebrate her "quarter life crisis" that she mentioned lolz....n yeh...i wanna see her pissed again...like usual wen she hit the CLUBZ lmao ^0^ *evil larf*. u see....Vi wanna get me pissed that i will chuck...lolz..i only chucked once in my life...lets see wat it would be like tmr !! muahahhahaha!!

I AM IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD...COZ EVERYTHING IS ALL GOOD ATM AND I WANNA BE LIKE THIS FOR A LIFE TIME...NO WORRIES...NO STRESS...NO DOWNS...ONLY UPZ...WAKAKKAK

WHAT IS LIFE...

during this long long holidayz...there were times of high and lowz... sometimes, i feel so happy as i can enjoy my holiz with friends n my baby, but sometimes, i feel so lonely and bored...and empty inside my life wen my baby is working basically 60+ hrs every week.  I miss those days were we can just chill bak during day time rather than only doin that for an hr or 2 at nite... wen i realised that most my 'true' friends hv gone overseas...theres not much i wanna do but work everyday, except my job that i have NOW, i only have an 8hr shift every sunday~_~ at the Mews; nursing home but i do the kitchen job of cleaning up, serving, preparing for food, washing basically for like 5-6hrs my nails are so ugly now>.< and sumtimes making food.  its a tiring job but i am used to it now.  other days wen i dun hv to work, i just want to go out...but i spend too much money~ if i dun go out, i get even more bored! i hv tried stayin at home for like 2 days..its just not rite for me.

today, i hada good catch up session with a friend...we had a long meaningful talk abt life - at some stage, we both feel empty coz life seems so boring without all the stress of studyin etc, and the fact that there isn't a full time job to keep us occupied -  i mean, there is no point for me to get another job now coz i am goin overseas in 2 wks time and yeh...which isn't such a gd thing...everything is bad timing for me.  i thought abt life and death today...what would happen if i die tomorrow? who would care? who wouldn't? what would happen if one of my friends hv a tragic accident? how would i feel? what if i lose some1 who means alot in my life? would i collapse n go crazy? cry for a life time (since i am sooo emotional)...what would happen to me after i die? where would i go? what would i be doing?? i mean...i am a christian however, i aint that religious..therefore in the christianity beliefs i aint sure where i would be if i do die this very moment...heaven or hell...when i think abt it...goin to hell..this aint funny..its scary...i am actually scared~...i can imagine finding myself surrounded in forever darkness with noises of pain, killing, yelling, death etc over and over again...full of evilness...

i was talkin to my friend about growing up and how we became who we are now...by our experiences.  my parents were over-protecting me at a stage...they knew i was the type that would like to be independent, yet they couldn't trust me with everything i did..i wouldn't blame them. BUT i always say to myself; i have to MAKE my own DECISIONS because i would not wanna realise i did the wrong thing one day and BLAME it on sum1 else but only me.  from that, i would learn not to do again...or whether there is a better solution to my consequences.  i am a stubborn gal...u tell me what i shouldn't do..i tend to wanna do it...of coz not everything, but i dun get convinced that easily...coz i am me i guess.....

these few days, i felt so lonely even tho i've been seeing my bf every nite etc...i realised i dun realli hv that many true friends....i hv been betrayed b4, been used by friends etc -  i just realised that there are so many people i once thought i would be able to trust yet they were the ones that were backstabbing me the whole time.  i am too gullable, i trust people too easily.  i am too friendly (as my baby said). i hardly can be a bitch to ne1 (except for pplz that i dunno well at all n never liked them in the first place..that's different:P) wen i think abt this, i realised i do hv a sad life...just wanting to find sum1 to go shopping with me for a whole day seems hard.  finding pplz to bum with, go out with isn't as hard..but seriously...melb...is kinda boring..same old routine everyday just makes me feel like i am becoming dead~_~ i missed some friends that i was close with once...yet coz yr12 came...i lost contact with many friends...i hardly went out to socialise - now that i hv the chance, i cannot...i dunno y... i dun seem to be able to meet new friends nemore>.<! the once-closed friends are either overseas, or doin there own thing, or working everyday... whereas me...i am free everyday, but it's boring me to hell!!!

this entry i just seem to be blabbing on crap! i just wanna write how i feel rite now, wanna share my feeings with pplz who can be bothered to read this...i believe i am just wasting my time wen i could hv done other stuf to entertain myself, but then i can never think of wat it could be...usually, i needa spend money on it~_~ which isn't such a good habit:P....ok i am too lost to go on with this...i think i'll stop now...sigh

holiday life...

man...i hvn't updated my xanga for yonks!!!wellz...lemme think where to start.....

for the whole wk...i was realli bored...the first few days of the week i hardly did anything but just ate, watched tv and did abit of shoppo...spent too much money just in this week!! thu nite, i wenta F4 for the end of yr party event with some friends...we got there early coz we didn't realli wanna stay for too long~ i was gonna go to charlie's b'day at loft...but no1 was goin there and i didn't wanna walk by myself late at nite from f4 to loft~ coz i am scared of randoms...wat if they come up and starts following me etc....i got home at around 2am...

friday, i didn't realli do much...headed out to the ct and met up with cath...but didn't do nething...bummed for a bit - checked out her new apartment, the pool and gym~ it was pretty nice~ but i went back home at 3ish...coz i was realli tired..i didn't sleep well the nite b4>.<! i then took a shower and got ready to go out at around 6ish...but the fkn bus didn't come! i waited for like 30min and gave up, so walked all the way to the pines which took like another 20min and i waited for the bus to go to bh! i met up with my babe and we wenta get some food and then back to his dad's apartment to hv a drink up~ it was a nice nite coz we gonna spend some times together since he has been working all week~_~ but unfortunately...he received a call abt needing to work the next day>.<! oh wellz...we watched a movie and drank like heaps of vodka mixed with pineapple juice...and also a shot of cowboy^0^. i got realli tired early so we wenta sleep like realli earli!!!

sat - my baby woke me up and told me he was leavin for work at like 7ish in the morning...and i got up at around 11ish.... still pretty lost in the morning coz it felt like a fri not a sat since he hada work:(  i drove his dad's car back home with his permission and went hm to take a shower to wake myself up. then later on on the net...talked to pris and she asked me to go hv a drink with her at pp...so i went out again....and later on wenta a park nearby to just walk around. it was a nice catch up session since i hvn't realli spent much time with her coz of my exams and shit b4 hand! but yeh....the first time driving his dad's car i thought it would be hard, but in the end i found it quite easy to adapt to...the height, the gear box etc...so yeh...didn't crash or scratch the car at all *thank god* i met up with my baby in bh at around 5ish...then headed to the ct to go to a party near my skool. met up with catherine, albert, jerryd, ice and some other pplz and we headed to leo and amy's b'day party. however....many pplz lashed that nite and i felt sorri for the b'day boy and girl as they booked a club for their b'day:( but yeh...we stayed till 11ish at nite, and went back to catherine's apartment to stay for the nite coz i hada wake up early the next day for my rmit exam for the archi course!

i didn't sleep too well that nite...hada wake up early for the exam...i was worried i guess, thats y couldn't sleep!!! that design exercise suppose to start at 10am and finish at 1pm...and i was suppose to get there at like 9pm to register etc, but i got there at 9 30am...and saw heaps of pplz lining up...they got every1 in at like 10 30 coz there was a total of 1200 applicants!!! and only 50 can get in ( as in if i do pass this design exercise i hv to go for interview and if i do pass the interview i'll be one of the 50 pplz) shit man...i was sleepy and i didn't know what to design for an  'emergency relief accommodation' for a natural disaster/war kinda shit! arghh...hv a feeling i won't pass it...

neways...my baby picked me up after my exam and we went home to eat lunch...after that i wenta sleep coz i was too tired *pig* oh wellz..kekek woke up at like 6...and wenta watch the bball semi final match..however we lost..so no more games this season>.< we went home...he got changed and went out to crown for dinner, and watched SAW2!!! man....it was ewwww!!!! i thought saw1 was good coz even tho it was disgusting but it was a good scary movie...so thats y i wanted to watch saw2....but it was worst! i think there will be saw3 lmao..i dunnoz...but yeh, it was a good nite coz i gotta spend some times with my baby^0^